I’ve been aware that my relationship with food has been unhealthy for a long time. I’ve struggled with eating disorders in the past, and while they’re mostly under control, sugar is a serious demon for me. I, like many people, can’t eat just one biscuit, just one malteser, just one mini egg. Instead, it’s the whole bag, and I’m left feeling disgusted with myself and a few days later my skin is hating me for it. While I know I should probably just cut down my sugar intake, I’ve tried it multiple times in the past to no avail, saying to myself that I’ll just have one hobnob, until before I know it I’ve fallen into my old ways.
|Chocolate and banana waffles originally featured in my Aylesbury blog post|
For that reason, I’ve decided to go pretty much cold turkey. My blood sugar levels are dangerously close to diabetic, and my general health isn’t great. Weight loss has always been a struggle for me, and I’m currently at my heaviest ever. I’m struggling to shift the pounds, due in no small part to the inability to focus and maintain willpower when I don’t get my sugar fix. I figure that if I can kick sugar to the kerb for a month, before reintroducing it in small, manageable amounts, I’ll be able to take control of my eating habits again. I already consume lots of vegetables and eat pretty well when I’m at home, but burgers while eating out are far too common. I’m way too skint to eat out this month, which should help with the whole process as I won’t be staring at gorgeous cake displays and dessert menus.
For my last day of sugar, my boyfriend and I went to the amazing Ginger’s Comfort Emporium in Afflecks Palace, an old haunt of mine, and chowed down on Chorlton Crack. It’s salted caramel and peanut butter ice cream and you haven’t lived until you’ve tried it.
I am going to have an emergency punnet of plums in my flat so that I don’t go completely crazy, but that’s it. Processed sugar is completely out, as are fruits high in fructose. Plums are all I’m getting. Come June I will be eating sugar again, but hopefully with a little more control.
|I’m going to miss chocolate buttons so damn much|
I’m going to try not to beat myself up if I fall off the bandwagon, but I really do want to try and stick to this for 31 days, if only to prove to myself that I can do it. Wish me luck!