So here we are in 2018, and I’ve barely thought about this blog for six weeks. It’s been a constant nag at the back of my mind, the thing I know I should be doing but somehow never have time for. This was a recurring pattern in 2017, as I went through phases of working really hard, then giving up for a while, and repeating. This led to ups and downs in my confidence, self-worth and general mental health, as when I procrastinate I gradually lose the ability to deal with other aspects of my life. The nagging thought of what I should be doing slowly drives me crazy, until I’m a stressed, anxious mess, even if my work and personal lives are absolutely great.
“Just get on with it” is the mantra I could do with remembering this year. That and “chill already”, “this too shall pass” and “remember what you want”, but that seems a bit much so I’ll stick with the first one. It’s not a resolution because I feel like resolutions are too, er, resolute, but it’s something I’d like to try and keep in mind this year.
I keep thinking that every time I take a break and come back to this blog I should start afresh and do something new, but the truth is that when I’m actually working, I enjoy it. I shouldn’t feel the need to do something innovative just because I fell off the wagon for a while. So, in 2018 this blog will no doubt change and evolve, but for now, I’m going to stick with what I like writing, which I’ve outlined several times already. It’s really time to just get on with it and actually stick to writing regularly. Admittedly, about 80% of my time is currently consumed by Horizon: Zero Dawn, but I shall struggle valiantly on to complete it so I can rededicate my time to this blog for you, my dear reader (I jest).
That’s all for now, but I wish you all a brilliant new year; may it be better than the last.